Week 1

Today, was offiically my first day on my journey to a healthier me! I know this will be a really rough road but I'm willing to try my best to get there. There will be up and down but I will not give up!

Some way or another we all get a wake-up call which starts us on the journey to a new way of life.  For some it is new developing health reason or some reason that make us realize we don't want to live this way anymore. Mine came a couple days ago when I got up and one of my 7yr old twin give me an important #. The # was from an informaical for weight loss. She said "Mom here is a # that will help you loss weight so you would be fat anymore!" I know she didn't mean to hurt my feeling but it did. I tried not to cry which is exactly what I wanted to do. I also wanted to go into my room and never come out. I had to ask myself what kind of a role model I was to my children.  Well not a very good one but I want work to be a better one!

My eating today started out well but hit a snag around noon. I had a plan to eat a healthy meal but a some summer sausage and string cheese instead. I know it was because I was very hungry and I need to eat now. I know it is only the first day and I will do better tomorrow. I did make up for it by not eating an afternoon snack. My supper was 4 1/2 oz of chicken breast, med. bake potato without butter and a salad with light ranch dressing. I only used 1 serving of light ranch and I split between the potato & salad. I plan on working in more fruits and veggies.

I went for a little walk with my children. It is hard to go very fast when you have twin 7yr old, a 4yr old and a 17mo old with you. But I at least go in some exercise and it was about a mile. I plan on exercising at least 30mins a day. I have elliptical machine but it is very noisy so I don't use it much. But that has to change! I also want to working some more exercising such as a dancing workout. I have been watching Dance your *** off and I want to get their workout video. It doesn't offically go on sale until the 15th so I have to wait.

I find it hard to figure out when I am really hungry or if it is just my emotions. My inner self is not very good to me. It always says "Go ahead and eat it!" "We will start again tomorrow." This is a never ending cycle for me and I have to find a way to break it. I also seem to hit a road block after I lose at least 20# which causes me to completly fall of the wagon. I need to learn to forgive myself and move on without totally blowing it. I"m hope by writing this blog and getting imput from other that I can do this.

I know I can to do this. I think I can, I think I can. I need to keep telling myself this over and over. Please try to understand I not very good at writting a blog but hopefully I will get better.