Monday, October 26, 2009

The Weekend

The weekend went pretty well or should better than the last couple of weekends.  I got a little bit of exercising in but not a lot.  I'm taking it one day at a time and hopefully things will get a lot better.

My eating today has been a lot better and improving every day.  I have got in 2 fruit already and plan on at least a couple more.  I also plan on getting at least 8 cups of water and some exercise. 

I know these last couple of weeks have been bad but I tooking toward the future not back at the past.


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

A quick update

I working on getting back into the healthier eating and exercising.  It is been slow these last 2 days but I know I have to getting going.  I will just have to pick myself up and get moving.  I know I fail again but I will have to forgive myself or I won't be able to move on.

I have been having a lot of up back problems which is mainly a rib that like to get out of position.  It causes a lot of pain and it makes me feel that I can't get enough air.  If I don't lose some weight on top as well as my bottom half I will be in big trouble!!

Thanks for checking and hopefully you will see some improvement in the coming day.


Saturday, October 17, 2009

day 54

Well I did again!!!  I had a rough week!  I start good last weekend when my Mother and nieces came out for a visit.  I didn't overeat when we ate out or stayed in a motel for the night so the kids could go swimming.  I went swimming for a little while because I was holding my son.  After about an hour he got too cold to be in the water any longer.  After the weekend was over my emotions got the best of me!  I gave into that little voice that told me to eat and never stop.

Besides I was feeling homesick and upset because my husband and I had a fight.  Him being the a man could not understand why I had a hard time getting over the fight.  I'm am a true emotional eater and I proved it this week.  I eat from the moment I got up til the moment I went to bed.  It seemed like a nonstop buffet that went on all week. It had salty foods such as chips and sweet food like cookies and brownies. Of course I gain back the 4 pounds I lost last week and hated myself for it.

I only exercise one day this week after going swimming on Saturday.  I did 30mins on my elliptical machine.  I kept telling myself I need to exercise but I kept giving into that little voice who wants me to fail.

It seems like my local support has just completely gone away.  My only close friend around here hasn't been call me at all.  We use to talk at least 3 times a day but now all I get is text messages which are jokes. She also has been trying to lose weight this last year and I have always been there for her.  I just don't understand while she can't be there for me. I need as much support as I can get right now.

Not only are my emotions causing me problem or finance is causing a problem.  We are a one income family so money is very tight.  My brother-in-law has been renting out our basement to help with our money problems.  He has it very easy because my husband is only making him pay $250.00 a month without helping  with utilities.  He has been paying us since March and he kept telling us he will keep up by the end of the year.  We use his rent to pay our property taxes at the end of the year.  Well since he kept telling us that he will have us pay up by then we didn't save any extra.  We live from pay check to pay check and we are behind on some medical bill.  We are also behind on a couple of credit cards so when we have a little extra we try to give more to those bills.  Last week my husband talk to his Dad because he does the books for my brother-in-law.  He tells my husband that they will not be able to give us any money until after he does the income taxes in Feb.  Now we have to come up with $1,250 by the end of Dec for taxes.  We have to cut out trip planned to see my family in Dec for Christmas and my husband hunting trip.  Also, we will have figure a way to get Christmas gift from us and Santa for our children.  Hopefully, my husband will get some overtime but it may not happen.  With this added stress hasn't help me either!

Sorry, I haven't gotten on here lately.  I'm sorry I had to express my disappoint in myself and our situation.



Thursday, October 8, 2009

Day 45

I have been have a pretty good week so far and hopefully it continues through to next week.  Thankfully all my children are healthy again and no one else got Strep throat.  Either Mother and my niece will be coming out here for the weekend for a visit or we will be meet them half-way in Austin MN.  If we meet them in Austin we will be staying in hotel and go shopping.  Either way will be great because I haven't seen my family since July and miss them a lot.  Living 8 1/2hr apart sucks!  I would have more support if we lived closer which would help with my loneliness!

My eating this week has gone well and I'm very happy with myself!  I can see improvements in the way I'm eating.  I use to go eat any junk food I had in the kitchen like chips, cookies, Swiss cake rolls and everything else not good for you.  I have noticed I don't do that much anymore because I stop to thing about how many calorie or fat in it.  By doing this I realize I don't really want all those calorie and I'm really not hungry.  I'm still working telling myself I don't have hurt after eating to be full.   I just need to feel satisfied and be happy.

I have been doing more exercise this week but there is still a lot of room for improvement there.  One thing I worry about is how many calories my body needs when I'm exercising more.  I know you need more calories if you are exercising because if you don't eat enough your body will go in starvation mode.  I don't want this to happen and lose more muscle than fat.

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and hopefully I will see a loss.  I know even if you don't see a change on the scale you could have still lost inches.  I have been notice some of my clothes are not as tight as they were before. Yay!!! Some improvement is happening.


Monday, October 5, 2009

Day 41

This is just a little check in.  I'm proud of myself because I didn't overeat this weekend.  Like I have said before weekends are my worst time with overeating.  I also got in some exercise but not as much as I would have like.   I believe this is a good progress and plan on keeping it up. 

I have a little cold but I still plan on continuing with my plans with my eating and exercise.


Friday, October 2, 2009

Day 39

This week went pretty well for me in regards to my eating.   I found that I made more healthier choices than I did before.  I believe I'm improving on my way of eating but it will take time.  I did get much exercise in this week.  I had a sick 18 mo old on Monday and Tue so he wanted to be held all the time. Because of him being clingy I wasn't able to get in my walks.  Then Wed afternoon my daughter JoEllen was crying after school because her throat was really sore.  Luckily, we were already going to the Doctor for a recheck on her sister so they were able to JoEllen out also.  We found out the next day she had Strep Throat and she need medicine.  I have been trying to keep everyone else healthy and it has been a lot of work.

I did weigh myself and it was the second week in a row of not losing any weight.  I'm just glad I did gain any and will try hard next week.