Day 33

This week had many up and downs that I had to deal with.  The beginning of  week didn't start so well which wanted to make me cry.  But I got over it and moved on.  I started to do better on Tue and by the end of the week I weighed myself like normal.  I didn't lose any weight but at least I didn't again any. So my weight was 271 pounds for the second week.  I know it is not an good excuse but I do have a big problem with my eating the week before Aunt Flo comes.  And Aunt Flo started today.

I didn't exercise to much this week which I know is very wrong!  I know part of the reason is because I was very tired and crabby.  I need to figure a way to keep myself motivated all the time.  I find myself wishing I could be like a lot of people who love to exercise and keep at it.  But I'm not and I will have to work at it.

My husband and I might get to go out by ourselves for a couple of hours this evening.  That is if my friend doesn't bail on us again.  We don't get out by ourselves every often because it so hard to find a babysitter when we need one.  Family said give us a call when you want to go out and we will watch them but they never can do it.  I really want to go out because we plan to celebrate our 9th Anniversary early.  Our anniversary is on the 30th which is on Wed. and it is even hard to go out during the week.  During the week we have to help our two oldest children with their homework and baths for all the children.

I have been reading a book this week and it really describe me.  The book is called Getting There Staying There by Jennifer Klein.  It had very great info which I could really relate to and it gave me some great tips also.  If you are looking for a good book to read I recommend this book.  It took me about two weeks to read it because I kept stopping because it made me really think about my relationship with food.

Got to Go!
April

Day 25

I did pretty good yesterday.  I felt hungry all day so I think I did eat enough the day before.  I'm find out how many calories a need a day with considering my exercises. 

Today, was weigh in day and I felt very good about the loss.  I lost 5 pounds this week. Yay!!  I told myself not to worry if the number on the scale increase or doesn't move because I notice some of my clothes aren't feeling as tight so I know things are improving.

I'm hoping that my children get better soon because my 18mo old son is very crabby.  He only wants Mommy and not Daddy so I don't get time to myself.  My older girls sound like they are better and in a better mood also.  I'm hoping my stress level goes down in the next couple of days.
 

April

Day 24

 I know I haven't been on much this week but I have been dealing with 4 sick kids this week.  Some of them had cold symptoms and some had muscles also.  They seem to get a little better each day and thankfully none of them have been running fevers. So far my husband and I haven't gotten of the cold symptoms yet.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we don't get them.

This last week was very different than my normal.  I did very well on my eating and I did some exercises.  Usually on the weekend it is a binge fest so I'm really happy with myself.  I gave myself a litle pat on the back! I'm hoping this will be how this will be for weekends to come.

This week has been going very well. I didn't overeat all week which was hard do to stress.  I did get a little bit more than I wanted to yesterday but I'm learning that it is not a major downfall.  So instead of totally give up I figured it was just a little bump in the road.  So far today it has been a good day and I hope to continue it until I go to bed.

I have exercise everyday this week and plan on continue at least another couple of day then take a day off.  My upper back is giving me problems again so I may have to go and get an adjustment at the chiropractor.  I hope soon with losing more weight the back problems will improve. It always hurts worse after exercising but I plan to keep going.  After a couple of adjustment thing will improve for a while.

April

Day 18

Today went really well with my eating.  I didn't overeat or eat because of my emotions.  I had a lot stress because my three oldest just could get along today!  I did eat a small piece of cheesecake but I figure it in my meal plan.  I usually have two big pieces a couple times a day when I make cheesecakes but I didn't. Yay!!!

I got some exercises in today not much but I did some clean around the house.  I was sweating and getting red in the face but I made it through the cleaning.  Of course the kids decided to hide or not listen to me when I asked them to help clean up.  It happens every time.

I'm proud that I didn't eat the bakery made turttle.  Dave got two of them which they weighed a combine weight of 1/2 pound. I have to admit I did eat one yesterday and felt very guilty.  Last night I thought about what I eat that day and new pictures I took.  I didn't like it at all!! I told myself tomorrow we will get back on the wagon and I'm on my way.

April

Day 17

I know I haven't been the greatest this week and I wasn't surprise to see a 1# gain for this week.  I'm going to move on and forgive myself.  I plan on going shopping today for some more healthier food and plan to get back on track.

I have been looking at some low-fat and low-calorie cookbook to find some good meal that everyone in my family will eat.  I have gotten some good meal ideas that I plan on trying out these next couple of weeks.  Hopefully my husband will like them so I can continue to use them.  He is always getting fating food and needs to lose about 30#.  I'm not going to tell him that I'm using low-fat or low-cal recipes for a couple of weeks.

My weight is 276#

April

Quick update Day 16

My eating has been up and down this week but I'm trying improve.  I do have to say my eating has been better than it was a couple of weeks ago.  I'm still trying to get at least 4 fruits/veggies a day which is one of my problem areas.  I have been working on mindless eating!  There are times when I noticed I've eating something without realizing it. I have cut down my sweets but I can't seem to cut them out totally.  If I need chocolate I go for 1 or 2 weight watchers candy instead of a King size candy bar. 

I have trying to include exercising into my day.  I have been walking my children to school and back.  I know it is only about 2 blocks both way but somedays I go back and forth twice.  Then I have been trying to get a 2 mile exercise video in too.  Somedays, I get in and other I don't.  If I don't I try to walk around or in place for 2000 steps.  Last night I did 4000 steps because we went out for pizza with a friend.

Tomorrow is weight in day and I will be happy if I don't gain weight.  I can't be prefect and it I try it will cause me to fail.  I have forgiven myself and moved on!

April

Day 12

Today, has been going very well for me in regards to eating.  Part of the reason was I needed to get more healthier food in the house and the other reason was I'm really stressed.  My husband has been working 7 days straight without a day off also he is working nights.  He is currently training for maintenance at working and still has about a 1 1/2 yrs to go.  So his schedule can change from week to week which make planing family outings very hard.  Well last night he worked a 12hr shift and didn't get home until 1pm so he was very tired.  I stressed because I'm trying to keep 4 very noise kids from waking him up.  For some reason they don't know how to use a quiet inside voice so I'm always telling my to be quiet.  After awhile it gets on my nerves and I get upset.  I have always been an emotional eat and today has proven it.  I did realize after awhile what I was doing and tried to stop.  I have slowed down my eating but not totally stopped it.

I have sat down and figure out the next 3days what I will be eating for my meals.  I have decided to try the weight watchers point system again.  So I planed the meals to stay in my point range and hopefully it will keep me on track the next couple of day.  With having what snack or meal I have plan on eating written down it should help cut down my mindless eating.  It also will help so I don't have to look around for something to eat and pick the wrong choice.

I changed the name of my blog today.  I felt I need to add my name to it so I realize I'm committed to loosing the extra weight.  I have to keep telling myself I'm not hungry when it is only 10mins after a meal.  I have to realize that I'm satisfied and I don' t have to hurt to be full.

I figured out this blog is from me to keep on track and help me keep track of mistake I have make.  This way I can correct the problems and forgive myself.  Also if people read the blog and leave comments is an added bonus.  

Kids are fighting again so I better go.

April

Day 11

I have been very busy this week with getting back into a routine with my children and school.  So far it has been going well.  I believe I will have time in the afternoons to exercise and it will before the three older ones get home.  With them not being around gives me a little peace and quiet which I will be able to spend on me.

I have been working on my eating and it is slow going.  Some days are better than other but I'm working on this really hard.  I have been cutting down my portions sizes and next I plan on getting in more fruits & veggies.  I have increased some of the fruits and veggies but it not enough yet.  I also have cut down the amount of salt I using and hopefully will cut it out totally.  I love adding salt to all my food except fruits so cutting out that extra salt is really hard.

I have been getting some exercises in each day and hopefully will increase it next week.  I have been walking the girls to and from school.  It is only 2 1/2 block each way but on some days I got back and forth twice.  I have some problems with a rib getting out of alinement so I for an adjustment at least once a month.  I'm hoping with losing the weight it will help with my heavy top half that keep pulling on my shoulders which cause all the problems.   I just had to have an adjustment today because it was out and it cause a lot of pain when I was walking.

Today was my weigh in day so I wanted to let everyone know I lost another 2 pounds.  This make a total of 7 pounds in the last two weeks.

I keep telling myself that people who read my blog will not get mad at me if I make a mistake.  I have this fear that if I write down my mistake on here I will not have one to help support me.  I need all the support I can get right now!

I want to say "Thank You" to all the people who read my blog and for the comments.

April