Checking in

I have been doing pretty well these last couple of days with my eating. Of course I'm not perfect but who is. I have walked at least 30mins a day so I'm getting in a little bit of exercise. I plan on getting at least 30mins of walking in a day if not more. I'm hoping I getting into a better routine and will be able to stick to it.

April

Starting again!

You can tell by the title of this post that I begin my journey again. I fell off the wagaon months ago and was too embrassed to post about. I have come to realize that my not posting has hurt me in the long run. This is suppose to be about the day to day struggles. We will win and love some battles but if we pick ourselves up in the end we will win the war. I know I fail but I need to get myself moving again.

I will try to blog every day but if I don't I will at least once a week. I'm currently working a seasonal job and still taking care of my family so I have been really busy. I like the job but the only thing is I realize eating really bad things at work. I love candy bars and chips which are there in the vending machine. A couple of days ago I decided I will not buy any candy or chips from there. I'm still letting me have candy in small amounts. I bought some dove chocolates and plan to let me get 1 or 2 a day to get my craving out the way. I know if I don't allow myself to have at least a little amount will totally crash. I didn't buy anything from the vending machine on Saturday or Sunday so 2 days down.

I have been having some problems with my health. I found out about 3mos ago that I have High Blood pressure and they put me on the lowest dose. After a month I went back in but it didn't change the pressure so they up the dose and it is work well. Lot less headaches! Also I have been having a lot of back and hip problem so I really need to lose this weight.

I also will be starting another new adventure which I will take about tomorrow. I'm really happy about what the future holds for me.


I really want to thank Jamie for getting ahold of me on facebook. She made me realize that even if I am not perfect people will still be there to support me. I also want to be supportive for others. So that me know if you need some support because we all are here for each other. God bought us all there because we are meant to be together in this journey.



April

Week 2 post 2

Well we took our youngest fishing yesterday. We spent most of the afternoon over at the lake. He is only two but he reeled in his first fish by himself. Then he help Dad reeling his fish also. Levi also got a turtle caught on his line and he was very excited. I kept casting my line and didn't catch anything until about 5:45pm.

The three oldest children are still out at their grandparents and will be until Sat. then we will meet my parent half to pick them up. They seem to be behaving and are having lots of fun. I worked a little why cleaning their room which is a major cleaning job.

I plan on doing 30mins on my elliptical machine and try to do some crunches. I didn't do to well with my eating the last couple of days but I'm back on track. I plan on staying on track and if I do make a mistake I will not take it as a failure but a bump in the road.

I'm sad to report my scale has bite the dust! I have had it for at least 3 hrs and has work well. It was off by 2 pounds but I was will to work with it. The last couple of weeks my son has spilled water on it and now it keep giving me a error message. I can afford a new one for a couple of weeks then I will start posting my weight again.

I hope everyone is having a good weekend.

April

Week 2 post 1

Well I didn't get in exercise in because I was on the road for 9hrs. My parent took my 3 oldest for a week which just leave Levi at home. It is so much quieter without them here. I have plans on doing a major cleaning job in their room and Levi's room. Hopefully, I will get rid of some more toy without them realizing they are gone.

My plans for today is to do 30mins on my elliptical machine then try to get in some crunches and jumping jacks. I really suck at both of them but I'm willing to try. Tomorrow I plan on doing my elliptical machine again and maybe a walk.

A couple of weekends ago my husband's cousin and his girlfriend said they could see I have lost weight. I don't see it but there must be some change. I did notice a pair of capri pant that are normally tight after get dried were a little loose. Yay!! I hope this continues.

April

post 3 for week 1

Today is the last day for week 1 and I did pretty well. I still have to work on my goals but I have done better than the week before. I have been trying really hard to work on my addiction with food. I did make mistake a couple of nights by eating before bed with is one of my goals. But I didn't do it every night like I use to do. This is an improvement so I'm very happy about this even though I did achieve the goal. I know I'm not prefect so any improvement makes me happy. I will be working on this every day and hopefully after a couple of weeks it will be a habit.

I have achieved my goal of exercising 3 times a week. I exercised Thursday, Saturday and Tuesday. I was going to exercise on Monday but it did happen but I still got my 3 days. Whoo Hoo!!!!! I did 30mins on my elliptical machine yesterday. I plan on doing most of my exercise on my elliptical machine but I also plan on adding other exercise to my daily routine.

I have been watching Dance Your Ass off on Tv and I can't believe how hard they work. I wish I could get myself to work that hard but for some reason I haven't been able going on it. It is so hard to keep up on the exercise if you don't have someone to check in with to see if you are making progress. I use to have a friend who would do this but she decided that she could be my friend anymore because my husband is her ex-husband's cousin. We help her out a lot by giving her money when she need some food in the house. We also bought her things when we went the store together and we also loaned her our pick-up truck when her car broke down. My husband was working on her car to get it fix then her ex sister-in-law(my hubby's cousin) found a friend who could finish it. The car she has came from my Mom for $2000 which was worth $5000. She is supposed to make a monthly payment to my Mom even if it is only $10. I can't understand why you would drop a friend who has help you out when you needed it. I'm trying not to let this derail me on my journey to a better me.

Today, I plan on doing 30mins on my elliptical machine and to eat at least 4 fruits/veggies. I got to go kids are fighting again. Heaven help me please!!!

April

post 2 for week 1

Well I lost another 3 pounds this last week. I plan on having Mondays as my weigh-in day because I'm hoping it will keep me on track over the weekends. Weekends and evenings are usually the worst times for me. I'm working on this and will continue to learn from my mistakes.

Saturday was a very good day for me because I got in my exercise. I think I could do it but I rode 7 miles on my bike. My husband wanted to write from New Glarus to Monticello on our bike with our kids. Levi only being 2 got to ride in a rider behind Dave so we weren't worrying about him. But JoEllen(8), MaKayla(8) and Amber(5) were going to be riding their own bikes. The two older girls we weren't too worry about them but Amber has a littler bike with training wheels so she would have to pedel more. We shouldn't have worried because they really enjoyed it and they didn't complain at all. We rode the 7 miles in an 1 1/2 hrs. Yay!!! Later that day we went boating also.

Sunday was Father's Day so we didn't do much of anything. We did take my husband out for breakfast but I did overeat and I ending up sharing part of my meal with all 4 of my kids. Also I watched what I ate but I still eat more than I planned. I didn't go overboard which is a change for me. I'm a work in progress.

I have gotten 2 of the three days of exercise in for the week which ends on Wed. I plan on getting some exercising in today and maybe another day.

I hope everyone had a good weekend.


April

1 post for week 1

I started working on my goal yesterday and it felt good to work on them. My eating was better than it has been in a couple of days and I will continue to work on this. I had a slim fast shake for breakfast today but I still have to plan on what else I will get. I do know I will be eating a salad w/tomatoes, little cheese, turkey and Thousand Island dressing. For supper I might be making some venison Bologna, noodle side dish and a salad. Snacks I'm working on.

Yesterday, for exercise I walk in the house for 30mins which equaled 2,500 steps. I also went for a short bike ride. I took the kids up to grandpa's house which is 3 1/2 blocks. While my youngest daughter decided to wear flip flops and tore off part of the nail on her big toe. So I rode back to our house to get her tennis shoes then rode back. After a while up they we rode back again. I figure that is about 14 blocks. I also did 30 jumping jacks which is not very pretty with all the excess weight around my belly. I also did about 44 crunches. I thought this was good for the day.

Today, I plan on getting on my elliptical machine for at least 30mins and maybe take the kids to the park depending on the weather. If I don't take them to the park I will at least do 30mins of walking the house. I want to try to get in some lunges but I don't know how many yet.

I suppose I better go do some of the everyday cleaning and spend some reading time with the kids.

I hopefully less stressful day!
April

Week1 with goals!

I decided that I'm going to have mini goal each week. Sometimes they will the same as the week before but hopefully it will help me more. I had a good last week until this weekend. This weekend was full of emotions and stress which cause me to overeat. I will be working on this and can only take it one day at a time. I'm addicted to food!!! I have realize that I will always have a problem with food and try to keep on track. I weighed myself last week and saw I had gain weight. This should have been a surprise because I know my eating was out of control. When I weighed this week I was down a couple of pounds from last week.

Back to my goals for this week:
1. Exercise at least 3x a week.
2. Stop eating just before bed or during the middle of the night.
3. Blog at least 3 times a week.
4. Drink 8 glasses of water or more.


I know I'm not the great at this eating good and losing weight but I'm trying!!! I wish I was better these last couple weeks but I wasn't. I will be working on this problem. I notice a couple food that trigger me on overeat and I plan on trying to stay away from them.

I just got done reading a book called Ruby's Diary. She is such a strong and beautiful person. Reading her book shows me that anything is possible if you only believe. I need to believe in myself and that I can achieve my goals. I'm trying!!!

Check in

I should of check in on Monday but I haven't feeling well at all. We did a lot of walking around on Saturday when we went to Breakfast on the farm and the Air Show. We all had a great time but got sunburned. My son just loved the air show and would have love to stay. The last couple of days I haven't been able to exercise because I was ill. I plan to get back on track today by doing 30mins on my elliptical machine and to do 2000 steps.

My weight on Monday was 278#.

Quick check in

I have made Mondays as my weigh in days because the weekends are always the worst time for me. This last week has been a down week because I always overeat before my Aunt Flo arrives. I know it is not excuse and I need to change my habits. I gained 6# this week. Part of the reason was salty food and wine coolers. I also am starting to feel bloated which doesn't help at all.

Today, I got back on track. I ate really well and did some exercises. I did 30mins on my elliptical machine. I also walked my daughter to school in 90 degree weather. Tonight I walk 2000 steps. Also did some strength training for full body. I plan on trying to at least get in 30mins of Cardio and 2000 steps. Monday, Wednesday and Friday I will do some strength training.

Over all it was a good day.

I'm still here.

I know it has been a couple of days since I have posted anything but I'm still here.  I have been working on figuring out the best way for me to lose the weight I need to be healthy.  I know I need to start by taking little baby steps!  I can't my habits overnight even through I wish I could!!! DON'T WE ALL WISH! I have to remember that the gaining weight is a lot easier than loosing it. 

One of the first goals I have decided I need to do is eat more fruits and veggies.  This is not an easy task for me because there are not a lot veggie I like.  I like corn, green beans, potatoes, tomatoes, lettuce, carrots w/dip, cauliflower w/dip and peas.  I like bananas, strawberries, watermelon, oranges, pineapple and some apples. With money being tight it is hard to get some of the fruits because they are little more spendy. With a family of six money for groceries doesn't go very far. I'm sure a lot of people out there can relate this problem.

Another goal I need to work on is believing in myself.  I have a lot of self doubt!!! I find it hard to believe I will succeed in my goals.  Most of my life I have had depression and a low self esteem. I will be working very hard at this because if I can believe in myself than I will not succeed.

Kids are running around and making a bigger mess so I will be getting some exercises in today.

Starting all over again.

I have come back here because I need to keep track on my feeling and my eating.  I have always been an emotional and over eater. I want to change my life and my way of eating.  I need to stop listening to the little voice in my head.  It keeps telling me to give in to temptations and I can just start all over again tomorrow.  I keep giving into it day after day which needs to be stoped.  Also I need to realize when I'm satisfied so I don't overeat until I hurt.

The Weekend

The weekend went pretty well or should better than the last couple of weekends.  I got a little bit of exercising in but not a lot.  I'm taking it one day at a time and hopefully things will get a lot better.

My eating today has been a lot better and improving every day.  I have got in 2 fruit already and plan on at least a couple more.  I also plan on getting at least 8 cups of water and some exercise. 

I know these last couple of weeks have been bad but I tooking toward the future not back at the past.

April

A quick update

I working on getting back into the healthier eating and exercising.  It is been slow these last 2 days but I know I have to getting going.  I will just have to pick myself up and get moving.  I know I fail again but I will have to forgive myself or I won't be able to move on.

I have been having a lot of up back problems which is mainly a rib that like to get out of position.  It causes a lot of pain and it makes me feel that I can't get enough air.  If I don't lose some weight on top as well as my bottom half I will be in big trouble!!

Thanks for checking and hopefully you will see some improvement in the coming day.

April

day 54

Well I did again!!!  I had a rough week!  I start good last weekend when my Mother and nieces came out for a visit.  I didn't overeat when we ate out or stayed in a motel for the night so the kids could go swimming.  I went swimming for a little while because I was holding my son.  After about an hour he got too cold to be in the water any longer.  After the weekend was over my emotions got the best of me!  I gave into that little voice that told me to eat and never stop.

Besides I was feeling homesick and upset because my husband and I had a fight.  Him being the a man could not understand why I had a hard time getting over the fight.  I'm am a true emotional eater and I proved it this week.  I eat from the moment I got up til the moment I went to bed.  It seemed like a nonstop buffet that went on all week. It had salty foods such as chips and sweet food like cookies and brownies. Of course I gain back the 4 pounds I lost last week and hated myself for it.

I only exercise one day this week after going swimming on Saturday.  I did 30mins on my elliptical machine.  I kept telling myself I need to exercise but I kept giving into that little voice who wants me to fail.

It seems like my local support has just completely gone away.  My only close friend around here hasn't been call me at all.  We use to talk at least 3 times a day but now all I get is text messages which are jokes. She also has been trying to lose weight this last year and I have always been there for her.  I just don't understand while she can't be there for me. I need as much support as I can get right now.

Not only are my emotions causing me problem or finance is causing a problem.  We are a one income family so money is very tight.  My brother-in-law has been renting out our basement to help with our money problems.  He has it very easy because my husband is only making him pay $250.00 a month without helping  with utilities.  He has been paying us since March and he kept telling us he will keep up by the end of the year.  We use his rent to pay our property taxes at the end of the year.  Well since he kept telling us that he will have us pay up by then we didn't save any extra.  We live from pay check to pay check and we are behind on some medical bill.  We are also behind on a couple of credit cards so when we have a little extra we try to give more to those bills.  Last week my husband talk to his Dad because he does the books for my brother-in-law.  He tells my husband that they will not be able to give us any money until after he does the income taxes in Feb.  Now we have to come up with $1,250 by the end of Dec for taxes.  We have to cut out trip planned to see my family in Dec for Christmas and my husband hunting trip.  Also, we will have figure a way to get Christmas gift from us and Santa for our children.  Hopefully, my husband will get some overtime but it may not happen.  With this added stress hasn't help me either!

Sorry, I haven't gotten on here lately.  I'm sorry I had to express my disappoint in myself and our situation.

April




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Day 45

I have been have a pretty good week so far and hopefully it continues through to next week.  Thankfully all my children are healthy again and no one else got Strep throat.  Either Mother and my niece will be coming out here for the weekend for a visit or we will be meet them half-way in Austin MN.  If we meet them in Austin we will be staying in hotel and go shopping.  Either way will be great because I haven't seen my family since July and miss them a lot.  Living 8 1/2hr apart sucks!  I would have more support if we lived closer which would help with my loneliness!

My eating this week has gone well and I'm very happy with myself!  I can see improvements in the way I'm eating.  I use to go eat any junk food I had in the kitchen like chips, cookies, Swiss cake rolls and everything else not good for you.  I have noticed I don't do that much anymore because I stop to thing about how many calorie or fat in it.  By doing this I realize I don't really want all those calorie and I'm really not hungry.  I'm still working telling myself I don't have hurt after eating to be full.   I just need to feel satisfied and be happy.

I have been doing more exercise this week but there is still a lot of room for improvement there.  One thing I worry about is how many calories my body needs when I'm exercising more.  I know you need more calories if you are exercising because if you don't eat enough your body will go in starvation mode.  I don't want this to happen and lose more muscle than fat.

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and hopefully I will see a loss.  I know even if you don't see a change on the scale you could have still lost inches.  I have been notice some of my clothes are not as tight as they were before. Yay!!! Some improvement is happening.

April

Day 41

This is just a little check in.  I'm proud of myself because I didn't overeat this weekend.  Like I have said before weekends are my worst time with overeating.  I also got in some exercise but not as much as I would have like.   I believe this is a good progress and plan on keeping it up. 

I have a little cold but I still plan on continuing with my plans with my eating and exercise.

April

Day 39

This week went pretty well for me in regards to my eating.   I found that I made more healthier choices than I did before.  I believe I'm improving on my way of eating but it will take time.  I did get much exercise in this week.  I had a sick 18 mo old on Monday and Tue so he wanted to be held all the time. Because of him being clingy I wasn't able to get in my walks.  Then Wed afternoon my daughter JoEllen was crying after school because her throat was really sore.  Luckily, we were already going to the Doctor for a recheck on her sister so they were able to JoEllen out also.  We found out the next day she had Strep Throat and she need medicine.  I have been trying to keep everyone else healthy and it has been a lot of work.

I did weigh myself and it was the second week in a row of not losing any weight.  I'm just glad I did gain any and will try hard next week.

April

Day 33

This week had many up and downs that I had to deal with.  The beginning of  week didn't start so well which wanted to make me cry.  But I got over it and moved on.  I started to do better on Tue and by the end of the week I weighed myself like normal.  I didn't lose any weight but at least I didn't again any. So my weight was 271 pounds for the second week.  I know it is not an good excuse but I do have a big problem with my eating the week before Aunt Flo comes.  And Aunt Flo started today.

I didn't exercise to much this week which I know is very wrong!  I know part of the reason is because I was very tired and crabby.  I need to figure a way to keep myself motivated all the time.  I find myself wishing I could be like a lot of people who love to exercise and keep at it.  But I'm not and I will have to work at it.

My husband and I might get to go out by ourselves for a couple of hours this evening.  That is if my friend doesn't bail on us again.  We don't get out by ourselves every often because it so hard to find a babysitter when we need one.  Family said give us a call when you want to go out and we will watch them but they never can do it.  I really want to go out because we plan to celebrate our 9th Anniversary early.  Our anniversary is on the 30th which is on Wed. and it is even hard to go out during the week.  During the week we have to help our two oldest children with their homework and baths for all the children.

I have been reading a book this week and it really describe me.  The book is called Getting There Staying There by Jennifer Klein.  It had very great info which I could really relate to and it gave me some great tips also.  If you are looking for a good book to read I recommend this book.  It took me about two weeks to read it because I kept stopping because it made me really think about my relationship with food.

Got to Go!
April

Day 25

I did pretty good yesterday.  I felt hungry all day so I think I did eat enough the day before.  I'm find out how many calories a need a day with considering my exercises. 

Today, was weigh in day and I felt very good about the loss.  I lost 5 pounds this week. Yay!!  I told myself not to worry if the number on the scale increase or doesn't move because I notice some of my clothes aren't feeling as tight so I know things are improving.

I'm hoping that my children get better soon because my 18mo old son is very crabby.  He only wants Mommy and not Daddy so I don't get time to myself.  My older girls sound like they are better and in a better mood also.  I'm hoping my stress level goes down in the next couple of days.
 

April